Essays

Language was supposed to help us understand each other. What if it's taken us as far as it can?

Ten reasons why we create, from the joy of filling a blank page to solving existential problems, making meaning from chaos, and fighting authoritarianism with art. Creativity is how we survive, connect, and claim our sovereignty.

A lifetime of devotion. Three decades of depletion. What happens when you finally untether from the myth that shaped everything.

I spent years as a priest then hypnotherapist trying to heal others. Turns out I can't fix anyone. My gift is being myself, always becoming.

Refusing the ADHD label because I love my unique mind. Neurotypicality is a myth created by patriarchy to enforce compliance and sameness.

In an age of AI and authoritarianism stealing our joy and creativity, buying a turntable and collecting vinyl is my act of resistance and reclamation.

Letting go and moving on buries trauma. I spent my life suppressing shame until I brought it to light. That's where real healing happens.

I spent 40 years trying to be normal, suppressing my desire to connect all of life's mysteries, until I just couldn't do it anymore.

Christians keep defending Jesus against those who harm in his name. As a former priest, I see this as avoiding inner work and perpetuating harm.

Religion taught me to be serious and earnest for decades. After leaving Christianity, I rediscovered humor, dancing, and playfulness as healing.

Christianity taught me I was separated from God. After leaving the priesthood, I discovered non-duality and remembered I've always been divine.

Religious shame drove decades of disordered eating and body hatred. I lost 80 pounds walking but still felt ashamed until I let go of the teacher.

Psychedelics helped to strip away decades of conditioning and identity. The integration nearly broke me, but I'm reinventing myself at 52.

I spent decades bored by the Bible, trying to fit into Christianity. After leaving in 2020, I finally found spiritual freedom in my own system.

I've always been a spiritual seeker, but religion punishes questions. After years of abuse as an Anglican priest, I finally walked away to heal.

Seeking my father's approval became a 30-year pattern of submission to abusive men until I discovered I already had all the power I needed.

At 47, I left Christianity and the priesthood behind. This is my story of deconstruction, transformation, and stepping into a new life.